I've been retired since June 1st but being a teacher, I don't feel retired. I've spent this summer break doing what I always do during the summer...traveling with my family, enjoying adventures with good friends, seeing movies and plays, playing with the most perfect grandbaby in the world and floating in Jeri's pool. So when someone asks me, "How do you like retirement?" The honest answer is...I just don't know because I don't feel retired.
But the summer break is winding for teachers. My teacher buds on Facebook are itching to get back into their classrooms to organize and decorate for the coming year. My DH John is stocking up on the school supplies that his students constantly forget. My DS Andy is busy getting his training room ready and being on hand for pre-season volleyball and football practice. Some friends are squeezing one last quick trip before the craziness begins. Others are finishing up professional development requirements. And me? I'm starting to get nervous.
I feel like I should be out shopping for a new convocation dress but since I won't be going to convocation, I don't need one. I feel like I should be working on a book order so that I am ready when the budget is released in September but the only book budget I have now is with Barnes and Noble and my nook wishlist. I feel like I should be working on some new lesson plans for my kindergarten visitors but the only lesson plans I have right now including reviewing colors with GS Ben. I feel like I should be thinking of redecorating the library but the only redecorating I'm doing involves my master bathroom.
So how will I feel when my teacher friends hop on the bus and it doesn't stop for me? How will I feel when I finally realize that my days as Mrs. D. are finally over? How much will I miss the way that a group of kindergarten students vibrate when they are engrossed in a story? How much of a hole will there be in my heart when I don't have my fifth grade posse with all of their drama to fill it? I honestly don't know.
I've considered lots of day-filling options like subbing (but only in the libraries), getting a part-time job (but where?), volunteering in friends' classrooms (not thrilled with that option), or volunteering in an elementary library (but I hate shelving). Nothing feels like a good fit.
So that's where this blog comes in. I hope to use it to explore my options and I hope that you'll come along as I attempt to reinvent Mrs. D.